Ugh. I hate freakin spiders.

Here's a tip: If you're highly sensitive to pills with caffeine in them, don't take them at 8:00 at night. 

It is now 1:14, and I can't sleep. My eyes won't stay closed, I keep waking myself out of sleep. When I lay in bed, my mind is racing and I can't focus on relaxing enough. It's that damn MetaboLife. Just like TrimSpa, if I take it before dinner, I can't go to bed. 

That is, if I eat dinner at my normal time--7 or 8:00. 

Now that I think about it, I wonder if one of the side effects of taking these is that you may have trouble sleeping at night due to the amount of caffeine.

To be completely honest, I am totally wired right now, and I have no idea how long it's going to last. SO I guess I'll just surf the web until my head hits the keyboard.

Holy Mother of Buddha. I just killed that fucker. Big Black one. *shudders*

~Pusher. Of. Pens~

My Blogging Consistency Amazes Me.

Veganism....Down the drain.

Writing....Staring Down the Toilet.

Cleanliness...."A" Plus!

I'm distracting myself with keeping things organized around the house, and sticking with a cleaning schedule. Making our place look like a home and all that good "perfect domestic partner" hoopla.

We just bought a tv, and...I don't know what to do with it. I keep staring at it, hoping it will tell me to 'play a videogame' or 'watch a cheesy chick flick' or 'pop in some porn' or something, but nothing. 

I'm finally beginning to realize that inanimate objects don't talk back, nor do they give you ideas. This observation also explains why my random profanities shouted at Office Machinery doesn't seem to work too well, and why when I'm working on my novel(s), it never finishes my chapters for me. 

The beau is working late nights, leaving me to my imagination. The good girl in me would be writing right now, but the bad girl in me wants to surf the web for all types of debauchery. 

But I'm off to a good start...I have a notebook open to a fresh page sitting on the coffee table next to me. There's a pen ready and everything. 

And hey, I'm blogging in here, aren't I?

The beau and I started a website, and I'm supposed to be posting something by the end of the week about Health and Wellness and stuff. Still in the brainstorming phase, but I haven't written anything credible since my senior year of high school, so I'm a little rusty on the journalistic aspect of writing. I'm sure everything I learned will come rushing back to me soon enough...

*But I'm not holding my breath*

So I happened across the walkway to my neighbor's apartment to use her phone, and I was admiring her Modernized Candelabra wall decor. 

She says, "Really? You can have it."

I replied, "Uh--what? Oh, I was just saying--"

I really didn't think I was salivating over it (well, maybe a little bit), but how do you say no to free wall goodies?

So at her insistence ('I want to put up more photographs, anyway') I nabbed it. I intend to clean it up and place it on the wall to complement our 'soon-to-be-assembled' brand new 6 piece dining table set. 

Now that we've decided we're going to stay here another year, we're slowly making our apartment a little cozier. The topping on the cake is going to be when we get a KITTY. Because Pusher of Pens LOVES KITTIES. And Pusher of Pens will be very ANGRY if loving beau decides against getting a KITTY. Loving Beau has been warned. ;-*

And now to go surf the web mindlessly and feed (or worse, develop) my ADD. 

~Pusher. Of. Pens.~

There's this annoying gnat that keeps flying about my head.

Originally written at 12:55 pm: 

Shhh…I’m at work.

 Just had a lovely lunch of cut fruit; watermelon, pineapple, honeydew and green grapes. See, this part is easy for the times I don’t cook, there’s always fresh cut fruit at the building’s cafeteria.

 What’s also awesome is that they have the ingredients of their bagels, so I’m good to go. Wait. Is yeast dairy? *Checks online* Hell no, totally vegan. I knew that. 

Really. I did.

Leftover cold Chinese for dinner (REALLY GOOD), and now I'm just passing the time playing the Sims and looking up Japanese Street Fashion. Man, I really love the style. Actually, all street fashion is just incredibly inspiring. I don't see that here. It's quite sad. Everyone looks the same.

So I attempted to make pot stickers Saturday night. The filling was delicious, but I know that I made the wrappers just a little too thick. I used whole wheat flour. And then I burned the bottoms of most of them, so the fiance ate about 1.5 of them and said, "It's good, but...It's burnt." So I have leftover dough and filling, so I'll just try it again, and maybe it'll work out this time around. 

Lately, I have seriously had a taste for vegan burritos. Black and pinto beans...brown rice, salsa, guacamole, lettuce, tomato, corn... *salivates*

I've also been craving mashed potatoes. 

Oh, side note: As to how I've been feeling lately since I've omitted the animal products. I honestly feel like I could be going through a very mild withdrawal. It was expected that I would have irrational cravings for fried chicken and medium-rare steak, but when I think about where it comes from, well...yeah. But I've also had less energy, I'm slightly irritable. I was researching some more, and they are also common symptoms when you take those things out of your diet, but then everything goes back to normal and you feel even better. It hasn't even been a week yet, so I know that's what it is. 

Another thought: Something I realized about some vegans...for those who do not completely understand the diet, they end up stuffing their faces with pasta and egg-free bread products all day, and don't look like the vegans most people are associated with seeing. And that's what happens when you consume wheat gluten. It bloats the body. And too many carbs without burning them off is a problem as well. So I want to do this right. I don't mind having the occasional piece of bread, but I want our diet to consist mainly of fruits,veggies,beans,legumes, blah blah blah.

I really need to drink more water. I'm finally up to a bottle a day. That's just pathetic. I also need to start working out. But these things come in waves. One step at a time. 

~Pusher. Of. Pens.~

!!Tip of the Day: Smile when you first wake up in the morning, and as soon as you go to bed at night. A genuine one.

If I could be any vegetable, I'd be a Parsnip. Heck Yeah.

Actually written at 10:50am::

Bonjour!

So I disappeared for 4 months, because...I really didn't have anything to talk about. But here's a little something worth documenting...

I'm going vegan. 

“Oooooo....what's that?” Omnivore onlookers ask. 

Vegan: (n) A person who does not eat or use animal products.

I know, it's just so rare that anyone ever talks about their experience going vegan. I mean, do a Google search for it. Nothing comes up. I'm going to be the first.*

I wish I could say that it's going to be hard, but I really don't think it will. I have my lovely fiancé going vegan with me, and, well...we never really ate much meat. But the cheese...that might be a slight bump, you know? And the clothes...well, the more I educate myself, the better I can discern whether what I'm wearing or using is cruelty free or not. Besides, this is a great excuse to buy a lot of new stuff. 

But that is NOT my (main) motivation. I feel bad for animals and stuff...I'd be an active activist if I weren't busy wasting time on worthless things. I personally don't think people need meat to survive. At all. As in, EVERYTHING you need is in fruits and veggies, and...grains, and...beans...and... other foods without a face.

If anyone against my thoughts is reading this...do something for me. Look up the acai berry and tell me what you find out about it.  What's in it? Then tell me I can't live like this.

Actually, that doesn't really prove it, but look it up anyway. Because it's an amazing berry. The Brazilians are lucky.

Moving on...

I'm still an aspiring writer. I am working on two different novels. One is vampire-esque. Which means, it's about vampires. The other one is Sci-Fi Cyberpunk. Actually, that's the name of it right now because I refuse to title an unfinished work. 

Which means I have nothing titled. 

Kind of sad considering I've been writing since I was in the Fourth grade.

I am also contemplating just publishing the book myself. I'll have to do more research, but I don't want to consider myself an environmentalist and kill trees. Everything is read on the computer these days anyway. If anything, I would want my stuff printed on 100% recycled paper, but I would eventually want to go paperless, selling it all in PDF format, or something.

Alright, this was just an update to get myself back in the swing of things. Besides, I'm sitting in $tarbucks with my new MacBook** and this adorable baby has a scream like Aphrodite, or some other cool Goddess. And I have a pedicure @ 11:30. Beauty calls...actually, it was calling everyday but I kept screening because I had “better” things to do, like, nap, or... find wine. 

Someone just passed by me, and they smelled. Like...well, like @$$. And a convalescent hospital.

I'm outta here. 

~Pusher of Pens~

!!Tip of the day: Do yourself a favor and put a filter on your faucet, unless you buy Spring Water. Pharmaceuticals aren't my idea of fortification or enrichment, ya know?

Notes:

*This is sarcasm. It occurs a lot in my musings.*

**I got a new MacBook! And Ipod Touch and Printer! The Ipod and Printer were free. I got the rebate back in 7 days. No lie. I'm in love.**

Where does dust come from? Is it bug poo?

I never really understood the idea of Spring Cleaning before. What was it about the first hint of warm weather that made people feel or believe that they should spend some serious time cleaning? I'd much rather go outside for a walk, or drive around with the windows down and the music loud. That is, until this past weekend.

My Sig.O and I had gotten a little lazy with our weekly cleanings, only touching the surface to make it seem shiny. We finally couldn't lie to ourselves any longer; something seriously had to be done. So on Friday, we began what I called,

"Super Mega Ultra Cleaning Extravaganza Peace Love 2008 Yeah!" (hold up the peace sign; huge smile)

*Sigh.* Too much anime.

It started out slow. Believe me, it started out REALLY slow. Friday night, we spent what seemed like forever rearranging our respective bookshelves. There was no real physical movement of the shelves themselves, it seriously took us about 3 hours to place BOOKS ON SHELVES.

Then Saturday we had a little bit of momentum. We took our ridiculously huge mattress off of our ridiculously huge bedframe, and cleaned it all, head to toe. Then we oiled it. We vacuumed all the surprise crawly critters, every dust bunny, every corner,ledge, you name it, we did it. And shortly into this, I realized that I kind of enjoyed it. There's something about cleaning that just makes you feel...

Safe.

We of course got distracted by *gasp!* the sun and went for a walk. Then we came back and lounged for 3 hours until the sun went down. Just didn't seem right to work when it was pretty outside.

We finished the big stuff yesterday, getting rid of a table and a chair, adding a shelf, rearranging, and I must say, I was very proud of the work accomplished this weekend. Our place looks much more inviting, much more relaxing, much more efficient. We can breathe a little easier (physically and mentally) now that our apartment is almost spotless.


I still don't understand what came over me; perhaps it was the idea of a new season, a lighter, brighter season that called for getting rid of anything in the house that could possibly bring down your mood. Everything is open, energy flows freely, I even feel like I could actually write here now!

It was a great way to kick off a new season.

!!Tip of the Day!! Fruit in the morning by itself is the best breakfast energy boost one could have. Try it out.

~Yep. Pusher of Pens~

What have I just done?

I'm not sure how this happened, but I was suddenly curious about blogs, blogging, bloggers, blog sites; the 5 W's and the H. I had already read a few of them myself to pass the time when I should definitely be working on my current novel/short story/anthology/miniseries/screenplay(?), and I have a personal blog on my MySpace page that I update only when big things happen.

So I figured, why not create one? Write your musings, thoughts, opinions, and other synonyms. It's a great way to excuse myself from continuing any writing projects I have right now.

*I am a firm believer that the internet was created to distract well-meaning creative brains like myself from finishing (or starting, for that matter) the work I planned on doing.*

But if I look at it positively, I guess I initially started this whole thing because I needed to get myself into the habit of writing everyday. Even if it has nothing to do with my novels, I need to be in Scribe mode, and perhaps it would open up my internal Muse box, and trick it into giving me an idea.

*There's that saying, "Never let your well run dry," and that was exactly what I let happen. Bad girl-who-thinks-she's-a-writer. Bad.*

So here. Hi. Read if you want. Some of it might be boring. Some of it might be interesting. Maybe even funny. And perhaps, who knows? I might even form a niche through this trial-and-error-i-can't-believe-I-started-a-freaking-blog phase.

!!Tip of the Day!!: Drink green tea. The antioxidants and the metabolism boost will do ya good.

~Yep. Pusher of Pens.~